How I see me right now...
I have been in this new town for a year. With you both. You trust me to be there every morning instead of going to work like I did in the first 3 years of your life...or 1 and a half for your brother.
I often ache for more adult conversation. More adult purpose. A girlfriend to confide in physically, but at least I have awesome hubby and two sweet precious boys.
I am big in their world. They are bigger in mine.
I can't, no refuse to imagine life without them.
I often feel like such a failure at this parenting thing. But, then you two boys still hug me, kiss me, and say, "Mommy, play with me."
And I know how forgiven I am.
You both use manners, smile at strangers, choose to share or kiss your brother's boo-boo.
And I know I am doing some things right.
I have been a mommy for four years. Four hard and beautiful years. I have changed. Motherhood has changed my identity and I love it.