How I see me right now...
I have been in this new town for a year. With you both. You trust me to be there every morning instead of going to work like I did in the first 3 years of your life...or 1 and a half for your brother.
I often ache for more adult conversation. More adult purpose. A girlfriend to confide in physically, but at least I have awesome hubby and two sweet precious boys.
I am big in their world. They are bigger in mine.
I can't, no refuse to imagine life without them.
I often feel like such a failure at this parenting thing. But, then you two boys still hug me, kiss me, and say, "Mommy, play with me."
And I know how forgiven I am.
You both use manners, smile at strangers, choose to share or kiss your brother's boo-boo.
And I know I am doing some things right.
I have been a mommy for four years. Four hard and beautiful years. I have changed. Motherhood has changed my identity and I love it.
I often feel like a failure, too, in this parenting thing. But God is so full of grace -- yesterday I attended Muffins with Mom with my kindergartner. She had made me a book, in which she wrote that I am more beautiful than a butterfly and that the best thing about me is that I am nice.
ReplyDeleteSweet words for this Mama's soul!
Thank you for your really kind and encouraging words on my blog. I will keep sharing my story. I have written about part of it, and am now on the publishing journey. Your post is beautiful. Be blessed
ReplyDeleteIt ain't easy being a mom! And it's so easy to feel like a failure! But, like my mom says, pray and love your kids through the tough times! Somedays feel tougher than others.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post, Dionne. Motherhood does change our identity. And it can be hard, especially those first few years. With the long days. And the longing for more adult interaction.
ReplyDeleteYour family is beautiful. And while we all have those days where we feel like we're failing at this job of mothering, our kids are always ready for a new hug and a new start. And I'm so thankful.
I hope you have a wonderful Mother's Day weekend, friend. It's a joy and blessing to walk this blogging journey with you.