Join me today for real, raw 10-minute writing. This is a blog party where we safely post how we really feel about the topic given. A place where we don't have to pretty up our posts so others will like it. No legalism and no pretending we don't struggle. Just unabashed honesty.
Today's Topic: The Problem with significance...we all want to be somebody
10 minutes-GO!
Upon hearing the lyrics to the song below, I thought of the above photo (yes, that is me). How I want to shoot the significance I desperately grasp and crave. Kill it. Then, I would be free. Free to not strive, seek, or long . To give up the false hope that if I could just be somebody then the respect, recognition, credit, value and acceptance would come.
I’m just the boy (girl) inside the man (woman), not exactly who you think I am...You came and made me who I am. I remember where it all began, so clearly...You created me, Something I never would have seen...You’re the only one who knows, who I really am...
We all wanna be somebody, we just need a taste of who we are
We all wanna be somebody, we’re willing to go but not that far. -Thousand Foot Krutch
We all wanna be somebody, we just need a taste of who we are
We all wanna be somebody, we’re willing to go but not that far. -Thousand Foot Krutch
It is my stain that never comes out. How embarrassing to call it sin. Stupid sheep don't like to be called stupid either. But they are and so am I.
I want to scream so clearly, "Die search for significance...you are not welcome in my life anymore! All you bring is disillusioned disappointment!"
There is this me that's soaked to the bone in "if-only" sentiments that distort my relationship with the Lord and it frustrates me. And I ask God to purge it from me. But, significance is persistent. So persistent in fact that it drives most of why I do what I do. Doesn't it?
To the point that I question my own sincerity.
So I walk the fine line daily between flesh and the spirit. Everyday I ask God to expose it. It's okay, I want him to. He is the antibiotic to the "Worthy" disease.
Personally, I am tired. This fight to allow God to be the Master of my life, the only one I worship versus everything else that wants to sit at the throne has worn me down.
I have to squash the bug that lies and remember that as I lift my hands openly to Him that He will stretch down wide open every time. That His grace is the ONLY hope I have to battle my struggles.
To walk humbly with my Lord is seeing me rightly...a sinner who is saved. A sheep who needs a shepherd. To see who I really am!
To see that I really don't need the world's applause to be valuable, worthy, or called.
"...You are precious to me. You are honored, and I love you...Bring all who claim me as thier God, for I have made them for my glory. It was I who created them."
Isaiah 43:4, 7 (NLT)
STOP! OKAY, YOUR TURN...
"Die, search for significance!" Oh, that just made me laugh out loud. If I had thought of that phrase, I certainly would have used it many, many times!
ReplyDeleteThanks for this good challenge ... I think. :) Now to bring it to mind as I go about my day. I am God's creation. Period.
ReplyDeleteI am so with you...to bring it to mind as I go about my day. Thanks so much for linking up!
DeleteI think you cover a very real struggle we all have Dionne. I love how you say "To see that I don't really need the world's applause to be valuable, worthy or called." Thank you for sharing so honestly. Sorry I'm a bit later posting -due to time difference. I think it is great you have decided to start the RAW ten minute Tuesday.I have linked in. Behind The Smile.
ReplyDeleteWow, did you and I approach the topic from two polar-opposite angles, or what? I do see what you mean... grasping for significance from the world won't do you any good. BUT, of course you know you already have all the significance you need, in Him!
ReplyDeleteAre we doing this again this week? Hope so! :)
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