Again, oh, again.

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My boys both wanted Hulk literally coming out of their cake. Here's my best attempt at that (fondant for hulk was used).

Again, oh again I am celebrating their aging. Their yearly movement toward independence from me. Celebrating? Well, yes, and no. I feel my self push and pull in sync. I can't let go, but again, I have to...eventually. 

I hold him and he wraps his sweet monkey legs around my waist and plays with my hair. These moments will end someday. I tell myself to savor it, but I know it is coming. It is normal. It is life. I tell my reality to shoosh it. 

3 and 5 are glorious ages. Silly, amazing, precious even profound.  And everyone tells you it goes by fast and they are right and I wonder why they feel the need to tell me that. Maybe they want to spare me from the pain they know is coming. The pain of change and letting go of a part of life that you want to relive...AGAIN and AGAIN.

Today is my birthday, It's almost summer and what I liked least about school.

Yep, today is my 38th birthday. Not an exciting number, huh? Since it is I guess, my day I should probably get to write whatever I want, right?


Well, it just so happens that today is Mama Kat's writing workshop where ya link up and share. So my birthday actually ties into two of the prompts!! Woo-hoo for me!!! Okay, I was probably the only person expressing that sentiment.

Prompt #4: Technically, May is still spring in my neck of the woods, and so here is a picture that I think captures spring for our family. We should be in an Eddie Bauer catalog right?

 I had to share the above as one of many outtakes from our sweet boys we are so grateful for. They can be such turkeys.


Prompt #5
   I don't miss school much at all, but the one thing I miss the least about school is not getting to celebrate my birthday like everyone else. Back when I was in school, the last day was always the 21st or 22nd or about a week before Memorial Day. My day is today, the 24th. So I never got to have cake or treats or hear others sing the special song on my special day. Sure, the teacher was nice enough to include all of us misfit "summer" birthdays the last day of school, but it just didn't feel the same. 

Am I over it now? Of course. And turns out, once I hit middle school I loved that my birthday was after the last day of school because it meant it was summer and what a way to kick off the best time in a young person's life.


Before I go, I have to share this last picture of my one of my most memorable birthdays...a cake made with so much painstaking love that it makes me tear up. I have a wonderful hubby.

 I have been known to occasionally and naturally laugh like Scooby-Doo. I was turning 29 I believe in this photo.

4 years to this day...

Seems like it was only yesterday that my firstborn son, Schafer was resting on my tummy. Brand new to the world. Such a gift that I couldn't wait to show off. I had to wait five days past my due date to meet him. I was so impatient.

My mind still smiles and my heart still beams with the memories of those first few weeks with him. He was so tiny. So fragile, but strong. Hubby and I were so sleep deprived. In a fog. We were so in love with this sweet little boy. Still are.
He used to cry more, smile while nursing, and sleep in the most peaceful way I have ever seen. He used to love kicking his legs for fun.

Oh, those big blue eyes with the longest eyelashes I have ever seen. He still has them only he is bigger. Now, he speaks in paragraphs. He brushes his own teeth. He tells jokes and prays precious thoughts to the Lord.



Am I raising him right? Will he be a man of God?
I am doing my best. I want him to be a person filled with mercy, compassion, love, respect for others, manners and a deep passion for the Lord.

I miss the days I could just hold him and he didn't wiggle to be free, but I like how friendly and kind he is now. How he can tell me what he needs and wants.

I am so lucky to celebrate this special day for such a special person.

Happy Birthday Schafer!